More Aware of my Tilting

I just tilted playing poker just now. Not crazy throw money tilt, but half tilt. But more importantly, i have actually realised what causes me to tilt, so i can avoid it next time, or to leave when i am tilting.

I haven’t played poker for a week, not even a hand. And i have stopped playing poker because i am learning about stock trading. But just now, what started as a message on facebook with a friend, turned into a facebook poker session. I know most of you would be like no way… you’re complaining about tilting on facebook poker?! But yes i am. Because tilting happen anywhere, at any game, no matter high low or even play money.

I sat on a 20000/40000 table with 800000 chips, which is 20 big blinds, but trust me, 20 big blinds is above average stack on the table because almost everyone on facebook poker buy-in the minimum of 10 big blinds. I won a 4 way all in. I had ATo. Two people went all-in before me. On full tilt poker, i would fold this for sure, ATo is almost never good, because their shoving range would be like AQ+ 88+ at least. And ATo is definitely way behind. But since this is facebook poker… where it’s normal to see 4 people go all-in preflop, you gotta know their mad shoving range, which is usually A4+ K9+ They are not so good as to shove low pocket pairs, but i see all sorts of Kings and Aces being shoved. So my ATo is actually pretty good here. The first shover is nuts, and later on he actually open shoved J7o, so i know i was good here. The 2nd to act is a bit tighter, but still loose, i think a lot of the time she could have K9 KT KJ KQ Low Ace type of hand, which i am ahead of, so i call. But i get like 2 callers behind too. Shover held some junk hand, 2nd to act held A8o, I had ATo, other guy had K9 i think.

But the point of this post is to discuss my tilt. Soon i manage to double up because i had TT and flop a set. I had 1,800,000 on the table now. I banked the 1m in profits, and bought in 800,000 again. Too much money = ego = play loose = lose money. So i banked, and started with 800,000 again. Now from here onwards people on the table didn’t change and they tightened up a bit. They know my tight style and probably tightened up a bit themselves. I didn’t get any hand at all the whole hour i think, and with no action, i got bored and started getting distracted and uninterested in the game. This is when i half-tilted. I define tilt a bit differently – when not at the best state of mind to play at the level i am capable of.

Then came the deciding hand. I was dealt AJo at UTG+1. UTG open shoved. I think he might be full of it. As i said A4+ K9+. But then again, i had a feeling his hand is strong this time. But i still called, i can’t lay down AJo, it’s the best hand i had in an hour! One more guy called. 3 way into flop. Flop came low cards, no Ace no jack. Guy who called last won with QQ. I would say i tilted a bit here, and called with AJo. But i really wanted to see the UTG’s card. If he had like A8s ATo then i made a good call, but if he only shoves like that with AQ AK or TT+ i probably have made a terrible call. Either way i was on tilt, and i make these rationalised unrational decisions, i call them. Which are decisions i wouldn’t have made if i was calm and attentive, but when i am half-tilted, i would rationalise a call just to get action because i am impatient and on tilt.

Yes, i think my guilt is boredom, and lack of purpose in life. It would sound very exaggerating but it is. Boredom, as lack of motivation is caused by not doing what you is right for you based on your values. If you know what is right, and you still ignore and presist on the old path, you will be dissatisfied. I guess playing poker is not what i wanted to be doing just now. I could have done so many more things which would be more meaningful for me, like chatting with friends, catching up on news. Instead i slogged on playing poker, even when i stopped enjoying it after half an hour. It is funny i always enjoy the first hour of playing poker, and win much, and after that when my broedom kicks in i lose a lot back. So when i am faced with this situation next time, i would stop playing poker, and do something else. If i can play only 30minutes of enjoyable poker, i will only play 30 minutes. Life is more than one thing, one hobbby, or one person, one achievement, you gotta do things that are meaningful to you.

The Needs of The Whole

This morning i drank a can of red bull and started writing with a pen and a paper. I began to write about my own version of economics, or resource allocation. As i write on paper, i begin to realise that everything just ends with needs. Products, Jobs and all these numbers are just by-products of need fulfilling. I also realise that the problem with today’s society may be that we don’t realise that the highest fulfillment for self and for whole is fulfilling the needs of the whole.

A person has needs for food, and for health and for freedom and expression. These are pretty much fulfilled. But the needs that come after these basic needs are fulfilled are where people go wrong. People are often chasing for approval from others to fix their emotional needs, instead of helping others fulfill their basic needs. So this cycle of wanting to satisfy the ego, while inciting other people’s ego is really crazy. And is a mad race towards nothing. Where the need for superiority, respect, approval is, is where the lack of love and appreciation is present. A person who feels loved and appreciated is an end to themselves, they live simply and spread more love around. However, a place where love is a scarcity, you see people who don’t know how to love, which is how you increase the supply of love, trying their best to get the closest thing they can get to love (because there is no love) which are attention, respect, and others’ fear. Yes, all these are distorted versions of love. So the cure to materialism and status seeking isn’t better products or even achievements, but more love and appreciation for others.

After the need for food, health and freedom has been fulfilled. A person has free reign over his time to do anything he wants. And if he is loved and appreciated, he ought to focus on loving other people and fulfilling their needs in return. It is only when the higher needs of people are fulfilled, that people really are happy. Right now people can compete to have nicer cars than their friends, nicer houses than their friends, but all these while they are satisfying the ego which needs to feel superior over others. The society cannot advance when people are satisfying wrong needs, such as the needs of the ego.

In a perfect society, people would love each other and live in harmony and resources are shared and allocate perfectly to those who need it. However, this requires that the supply of love is high. If not, constant destructive competition would still be going on for the limited supply of approval. I guess what i am trying to say is people should be fulfilling the needs of people in developing countries who have no food to eat, no clean environment, no medication. Education will be the priority as long as it is not for status seeking, but seeking knowledge to do good for the community.

The way we can begin doing that is by including the poor people into the market place. If people have jobs and are able to fulfill the needs of the people with excess money, the money will go to the poor. And with nothing changed, the needs of the poor will be fulfilled. Of course, this will result in people with less and less money to spend in developed countries, but it is only natural because the purpose to help the poor come before the need to fulfill a person’s other needs. Besides helping others brings joy to people, and the joy of helping others should begin to be the main incentive that drive human activity. So the incentive provided by luxury cars, houses, achievement should be replaced by the satisfaction of achievement for helping the world become a better place for everyone.

However, it might not be true that people are uncaring, a lot of people just have fallen into the habit of self-fulfilment because they don’t know how else to fill this need. People have to be shown that helping others, volunteering to help the needy will make them more fulfilled than continue their other habits of self-fulfillment.

Beginner Trader

I am just starting to learn about trading but i am increasingly overwhelmed by these terms, liquity, leverage, etc.etc. I hear a lot of these economists and analysts say these on CNBC and Bloomberg but i have no idea what they are saying. Trading is not yet as exciting as poker, but i hope it will be more rewarding financially lol.

I guess if we put enough dogged effort into something, you will become better at it, and you will think along those lines and eventually like the thing. So i hope with trading. I am learning from books right now, and i am not the most focused reader, but i am trying to focus my mind on the book, even though most times my mind just wanders and i become very bored after only a few pages. It’s not that i am not interested in trading, but i’m just generally very bad at concentrating.

The book i am reading right now is “One Up on Wall Street” by Peter Lynch. It’s quite an easy read, nothing too technical, but since recently i just finished a technical analysis book, my mind is more on charts and patterns than on the fundamentals like financials. So i stopped reading that for a while, started getting distracted by videos and browsing for a while, and started reading “Trading in the Zone” by Mark Douglas. I immediately got glued to this book because it is more philosophical, more about the mindset and psychology of trading rather than the technical aspects. I am very interested in psychology and philosophy so i immediately was attracted to this book. I plan to finish reading this book, it seems like the most interesting trading book i have come across so far, and of course many people recommended this book in the forums, which is why i downloaded it.

Again i really am clueless about trading. I don’t know when to enter etc. I try to find patterns but then again how many patterns are there in charts? I see these support and resistance lines, but i don’t know if they are correct. And who knows if the line just go out of the pattern. Nothing is guaranteed. I really am eager to make my first real life trade, prolly just for couple thousand dollars, hopefully can cash in 10% which is $200. Commission about $60, so i can earn $160. Which is one month expense for me here. Ok maybe not, maybe more like $500 if i were to pay for my own petrol,food,bills. Excluding rent. I guess i am just eager to make a trade because I want to show my dad I am really serious in doing this, and these days he might think that i am just wasting my days away (since i can show no results), when in actual fact i am learning about trading. I just don’t want to dive in too quick.

Okay so since March the market has been on the rise. Pretty good rally. And i never knew it would last for so long. However i don’t think this is going to go up and up from here. As i have listened to the experts, the fundamentals haven’t improved, and many economic data are still bad (where do you get these economic data?). That coupled with the fact that June-Sept they say are the worst months for stocks, i think the market is going to head down soon. However, i just placed a couple of trades on couple of SGX (Singapore) stocks which i think have pretty clear support and resistance on this uptrend. I am not shorting any stocks yet because i really don’t know when this bull rally will end, but i am always alert waiting for the day (the market goes down)! I am such a pessimist. But if the situation is looking bad, like many seems to say, then why is market being all bullish right now, isn’t it a bit too early? I hope i can learn more about economics to find out for myself how the situation is like right now instead of having to listen to people. I am planning to read a book on Economics after this one, there are so many books i have downloaded i don’t know when i will finish reading them all! I pray for the power to focus on finishing these books i have set out to read.

Judging

What does Judging mean? Aren’t we judging people wherever we go. If we aren’t judging and making sense of people and things, how do we cope? If we don’t judge something as bad, why would want something better? Advancement requires that we judge!

Don’t judge other people. I’m always been confused about this. How the hell do we not judge other people? Also how do we not judge ourselves (aka conscience)? We make decisions, and decisions itself means that there is a something better than something else, so there will always be something good and something not so good (or bad).

So if someone makes you angry. Is it wrong to judge that he has done something wrong to you? Is it wrong to reprimand him/her? Then what is the use of feelings? Why would you let someone step all over you when you have done nothing wrong. It’s wrong in fact for you to keep quiet. If someone has crossed the line, we shouldn’t accept it, we shouldn’t ignore it (thinking it’s better to not create conflict), we should confront the other person so that he/she realises his/her fault. Because awareness is the next step from ignorance, by letting a person go on unaware of his/her wrongdoing might look like it’s the best thing to do, but this pent up emotion will snowball and before you know it boom, you’ll explode. And everyone rather have 10 minor tremors than one big explosion. It’s not good for you or for anybody. So if someone has done something that affects you, confront him or her, it would do both of you good.

I guess i am ranting because being so sensitive as i am, i often find little things people do (and don’t realise) offensive. When people speak to me in a condescending tone, i really hate it. Or if people don’t care about me, i am really dissapointed, and will think about it a lot. I guess these things are also caused by my having no work to do, so i will mull over past events again and again (and now staying in the present). But feelings from the past stick with you in the present, and you can’t help but keep thinking over it, thinking what was wrong.

I guess i am kind of rambling here, a little out of rage. I had it from other people that i am way too sensitive and can’t take any criticism. I guess it’s true. People don’t seem to want to criticize me because maybe they sense i take things very seriously. I am increasingly not getting along with people, actually i can safely say i have no friends. I never had friends actually. Since secondary school, i have never been close to someone that i can tell him/her my inner most thoughts. I guess we are not on the same though level. I think of so many unique things that no one will understand. Either i’m half a genuis or that i’m just wierd crazy. I don’t know, people say that… yes you know what i’m going to say… it’s a fine line between genius and madness.

But the next step for me definitely is definitely, whenever someone makes me feel uncomfortable, i am going to hint it to him to make him realise that he/she is doing something inappropriate – i’ve tried this a few times before and it didn’t end up any good. But i will continue in pointing out people’s mistakes. So maybe people will start pointing out my mistakes instead of just back, avoiding conflict (as usual). I read that avoiding conflict and not speaking your true feeling about someone, is the leading cause of all conflicts. Ironic huh? Avoiding conflict is never the solution, it only builds rocks inside than will build up into a volcano and you’ll erupt.

Bad Beats after Suckout

It’s only fair isn’t it?? Win 3 games in a row, with some luck, and lose 3 games in a row with bad beats.

It’s times like tonight when i think i shouldn’t play anymore, not because i’m tilted, i’m very composed, but i just feel like luck is not on my side for some reason. 3 outered 3 games in a row is a bit too much…

Full Tilt Poker Game #12671403103: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94339950), Table 1 – 20/40 – No Limit Hold’em – 10:25:37 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 3: vandal 84 (1,080)

Seat 4: oNyx90 (255)

Seat 6: lolbin7 (255)

Seat 7: ontheroadgramma (220)

Seat 8: andrelar (620)

Seat 9: JTH-TX (270)

andrelar posts the small blind of 20

JTH-TX posts the big blind of 40

The button is in seat #7

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [Ac Tc]

vandal 84 calls 40

oNyx90 folds

lolbin7 raises to 255, and is all in

ontheroadgramma folds

andrelar folds

JTH-TX has 15 seconds left to act

JTH-TX folds

vandal 84 calls 215

lolbin7 shows [Ac Tc]

vandal 84 shows [7c Ad]

*** FLOP *** [5s 3h Ah]

*** TURN *** [5s 3h Ah] [6d]

*** RIVER *** [5s 3h Ah 6d] [4s]

lolbin7 shows a pair of Aces

vandal 84 shows a straight, Seven high

vandal 84 wins the pot (570) with a straight, Seven high

lolbin7 stands up

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 570 | Rake 0

Board: [5s 3h Ah 6d 4s]

Seat 3: vandal 84 showed [7c Ad] and won (570) with a straight, Seven high

Seat 4: oNyx90 didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 6: lolbin7 showed [Ac Tc] and lost with a pair of Aces

Seat 7: ontheroadgramma (button) didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 8: andrelar (small blind) folded before the Flop

Seat 9: JTH-TX (big blind) folded before the Flop

Full Tilt Poker Game #12671403103: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94339950), Table 1 – 20/40 – No Limit Hold’em – 10:25:37 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 3: vandal 84 (1,080)

Seat 4: oNyx90 (255)

Seat 6: lolbin7 (255)

Seat 7: ontheroadgramma (220)

Seat 8: andrelar (620)

Seat 9: JTH-TX (270)

andrelar posts the small blind of 20

JTH-TX posts the big blind of 40

The button is in seat #7

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [Ac Tc]

vandal 84 calls 40

oNyx90 folds

lolbin7 raises to 255, and is all in

ontheroadgramma folds

andrelar folds

JTH-TX has 15 seconds left to act

JTH-TX folds

vandal 84 calls 215

lolbin7 shows [Ac Tc]

vandal 84 shows [7c Ad]

*** FLOP *** [5s 3h Ah]

*** TURN *** [5s 3h Ah] [6d]

*** RIVER *** [5s 3h Ah 6d] [4s]

lolbin7 shows a pair of Aces

vandal 84 shows a straight, Seven high

vandal 84 wins the pot (570) with a straight, Seven high

lolbin7 stands up

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 570 | Rake 0

Board: [5s 3h Ah 6d 4s]

Seat 3: vandal 84 showed [7c Ad] and won (570) with a straight, Seven high

Seat 4: oNyx90 didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 6: lolbin7 showed [Ac Tc] and lost with a pair of Aces

Seat 7: ontheroadgramma (button) didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 8: andrelar (small blind) folded before the Flop

Seat 9: JTH-TX (big blind) folded before the Flop

Full Tilt Poker Game #12671244088: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94339024), Table 1 – 15/30 – No Limit Hold’em – 10:12:27 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 1: Boa747 (285)

Seat 3: lolbin7 (270)

Seat 4: guyonn (300)

Seat 5: skysauteur (300)

Seat 7: steelerfan5151 (630)

Seat 8: Wally0408 (270)

Seat 9: timmiTHEkid (645)

lolbin7 posts the small blind of 15

guyonn posts the big blind of 30

The button is in seat #2

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [Td Ts]

skysauteur folds

steelerfan5151 calls 30

Wally0408 folds

timmiTHEkid folds

Boa747 calls 30

lolbin7 raises to 270, and is all in

guyonn folds

steelerfan5151 folds

Boa747 calls 240

lolbin7 shows [Td Ts]

Boa747 shows [Kh Tc]

*** FLOP *** [7h 2h Kc]

*** TURN *** [7h 2h Kc] [8h]

*** RIVER *** [7h 2h Kc 8h] [Ad]

lolbin7 shows a pair of Tens

Boa747 shows a pair of Kings

Boa747 wins the pot (600) with a pair of Kings

lolbin7 stands up

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 600 | Rake 0

Board: [7h 2h Kc 8h Ad]

Seat 1: Boa747 showed [Kh Tc] and won (600) with a pair of Kings

Seat 3: lolbin7 (small blind) showed [Td Ts] and lost with a pair of Tens

Seat 4: guyonn (big blind) folded before the Flop

Seat 5: skysauteur didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 7: steelerfan5151 folded before the Flop

Seat 8: Wally0408 didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 9: timmiTHEkid didn’t bet (folded)

Full Tilt Poker Game #12670948252: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94336375), Table 1 – 25/50 – No Limit Hold’em – 9:45:18 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 1: SEXY MF75 (460)

Seat 2: faspatz77 (605)

Seat 4: soapyjeans (255)

Seat 5: lolbin7 (295)

Seat 6: ravinklg (235)

Seat 8: DETROITFANRB (310)

Seat 9: SI-Fingolfin (540)

SEXY MF75 posts the small blind of 25

faspatz77 posts the big blind of 50

The button is in seat #9

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [Th Td]

soapyjeans calls 50

lolbin7 raises to 295, and is all in

ravinklg folds

DETROITFANRB folds

SI-Fingolfin folds

SEXY MF75 folds

faspatz77 has 15 seconds left to act

faspatz77 folds

soapyjeans calls 205, and is all in

lolbin7 shows [Th Td]

soapyjeans shows [Ts Ad]

Uncalled bet of 40 returned to lolbin7

*** FLOP *** [2h 6c 4h]

*** TURN *** [2h 6c 4h] [3c]

*** RIVER *** [2h 6c 4h 3c] [Ac]

lolbin7 shows a pair of Tens

soapyjeans shows a pair of Aces

soapyjeans wins the pot (585) with a pair of Aces

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 585 | Rake 0

Board: [2h 6c 4h 3c Ac]

Seat 1: SEXY MF75 (small blind) folded before the Flop

Seat 2: faspatz77 (big blind) folded before the Flop

Seat 4: soapyjeans showed [Ts Ad] and won (585) with a pair of Aces

Seat 5: lolbin7 showed [Th Td] and lost with a pair of Tens

Seat 6: ravinklg didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 8: DETROITFANRB didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 9: SI-Fingolfin (button) didn’t bet (folded)

Being Alone

okay you can smell a long philosophical post coming, and so can i :)

I been reading Eckhart Tolle’s “A New Earth” lately. And i have been thinking about concepts he has talked about like the “pain-body” and “ego” and “self” and i think it’s good that i read this book because i think i have whatever you call “an ego” or a certain selfishness.

Basically i find that i really hate it when “people don’t act in my self interest”. Which means people don’t do things the way i want them to. Of course when things turn out not the way it should, or the way i want/expect them to will also cause me to feel angry. This i believe is the same for everybody. Who can say they don’t feel sad after a failure? But Eckhart has taught the need for “Acceptance”. Which means even though you failed, or things didn’t turn out the way you want them to, you should “accept” instead of “reject” and not “be stucked in the past” because “the power is always in the present”. Accept the person who has mistaken you for something you didn’t do, do not “reject” or scold or seperate yourself from that person. Everyone goes through the same problems, but it’s better to “accept” rather than “react in self defence”.

So i find that when i get bad beated in Poker. For example, last night i flopped the nut straight and got sucked out on. Obviously i made the right play, but things didn’t turn out the way it “correctly” should. I feel like my “self” has been wronged. Like someone blaming you furiously for something you didn’t do, you feel like you are at the receiving end of negativity that you don’t deserve. I think that i sum it up pretty well there. When something terrible happens to you that you don’t deserve, your reaction is to dump this negativity some place else. And containing it will be insane, because rationally, we don’t deserve this negativity! And more often than not, the person who wronged you is the one you will throw this negativity back towards.

I still don’t know how to deal with these forced to receive negativity moments. In poker and in life, it’s just tough to deal with. Of course it’s easy to say accept and forgive. But it’s harder than you think. It’s like physically taking a punch in a the face, it’s very hard to ignore. And anger makes us “separated” from the whole. I learnt about separation from Eckhart and i find it a great concept. I am becoming aware that when i am angry or uncomfortable i feel “Separated” from the world, from everything, it’s all about me and what i’m unhappy about. On the other hand, being at peace and accepting of bad situations still keeps us “At One” with the source, and therefore will bring us more good. Also we shouldn’t keep alone. If you are alone for a few hours, i find you will experience this certain feeling of unease which probably is caused by “separation from the whole”. Therefore a person needs to go out and be around people and interact with people to stay “connected” to the whole. Only then will you receive more blessings.

I am beginning to understand better, and realise the deeper meaning of things wise men have said. And i remember Rockefeller in his letter to his son emphasize how eating well and rest is a religious duty. I now believe that without eating on time and resting well, i cannot advance in my pursuits, it’s really a spiritual duty to take care of our health. Thinking is not everything.

I post my suckouts too

Full Tilt Poker Game #12666426176: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94304414), Table 1 – 100/200 – No Limit Hold’em – 1:29:33 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (560)

Seat 3: lolbin7 (1,150)

Seat 7: FoursBEgood (990)

lolbin7 posts the small blind of 100

FoursBEgood posts the big blind of 200

The button is in seat #2

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [Qh Jh]

MADMITCH25 folds

lolbin7 has 15 seconds left to act

lolbin7 raises to 1,150, and is all in

FoursBEgood calls 790, and is all in

lolbin7 shows [Qh Jh]

FoursBEgood shows [Js Kd]

Uncalled bet of 160 returned to lolbin7

*** FLOP *** [6c 2s 2c]

*** TURN *** [6c 2s 2c] [Qd]

*** RIVER *** [6c 2s 2c Qd] [2d]

lolbin7 shows a full house, Twos full of Queens

FoursBEgood shows three of a kind, Twos

lolbin7 wins the pot (1,980) with a full house, Twos full of Queens

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 1,980 | Rake 0

Board: [6c 2s 2c Qd 2d]

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (button) didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 3: lolbin7 (small blind) showed [Qh Jh] and won (1,980) with a full house, Twos full of Queens

Seat 7: FoursBEgood (big blind) showed [Js Kd] and lost with three of a kind, Twos

First time ever winning back to back 1st. I think i did too when i first started out playing and run terribly good. But it’s been once in a long time winning 1st, and this time it’s back to back. I can’t say i played well though… i suckout really bad… these are the last 3 hands of these 2 winning games, pretty lucky.

Full Tilt Poker Game #12666426176: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94304414), Table 1 – 100/200 – No Limit Hold’em – 1:29:33 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (560)

Seat 3: lolbin7 (1,150)

Seat 7: FoursBEgood (990)

lolbin7 posts the small blind of 100

FoursBEgood posts the big blind of 200

The button is in seat #2

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [Qh Jh]

MADMITCH25 folds

lolbin7 has 15 seconds left to act

lolbin7 raises to 1,150, and is all in

FoursBEgood calls 790, and is all in

lolbin7 shows [Qh Jh]

FoursBEgood shows [Js Kd]

Uncalled bet of 160 returned to lolbin7

*** FLOP *** [6c 2s 2c]

*** TURN *** [6c 2s 2c] [Qd]

*** RIVER *** [6c 2s 2c Qd] [2d]

lolbin7 shows a full house, Twos full of Queens

FoursBEgood shows three of a kind, Twos

lolbin7 wins the pot (1,980) with a full house, Twos full of Queens

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 1,980 | Rake 0

Board: [6c 2s 2c Qd 2d]

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (button) didn’t bet (folded)

Seat 3: lolbin7 (small blind) showed [Qh Jh] and won (1,980) with a full house, Twos full of Queens

Seat 7: FoursBEgood (big blind) showed [Js Kd] and lost with three of a kind, Twos

Full Tilt Poker Game #12666432917: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94304414), Table 1 – 100/200 – No Limit Hold’em – 1:30:04 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (560)

Seat 3: lolbin7 (2,140)

lolbin7 posts the small blind of 100

MADMITCH25 posts the big blind of 200

The button is in seat #3

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [8s 3d]

Kiskila (Observer): thats terrible

FoursBEgood (Observer): pretty sick

lolbin7 folds

Uncalled bet of 100 returned to MADMITCH25

MADMITCH25 mucks

MADMITCH25 wins the pot (200)

Kiskila (Observer): roll?

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 200 | Rake 0

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (big blind) collected (200), mucked

Seat 3: lolbin7 (small blind) folded before the Flop

Full Tilt Poker Game #12666434721: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94304414), Table 1 – 100/200 – No Limit Hold’em – 1:30:13 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (660)

Seat 3: lolbin7 (2,040)

MADMITCH25 posts the small blind of 100

lolbin7 posts the big blind of 200

The button is in seat #2

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [5c Kh]

FoursBEgood (Observer): 4 outter

MADMITCH25 folds

Uncalled bet of 100 returned to lolbin7

lolbin7: sorry

FoursBEgood (Observer): 124

lolbin7 mucks

Kiskila (Observer): no a 3 outer

lolbin7 wins the pot (200)

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 200 | Rake 0

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (small blind) folded before the Flop

Seat 3: lolbin7 (big blind) collected (200), mucked

Full Tilt Poker Game #12666436716: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94304414), Table 1 – 100/200 – No Limit Hold’em – 1:30:23 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (560)

Seat 3: lolbin7 (2,140)

lolbin7 posts the small blind of 100

MADMITCH25 posts the big blind of 200

The button is in seat #3

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [8c 8d]

lolbin7 calls 100

FoursBEgood (Observer): or

FoursBEgood (Observer): ya

FoursBEgood (Observer): a 3 outter

MADMITCH25 raises to 560, and is all in

lolbin7 has 15 seconds left to act

lolbin7 calls 360

MADMITCH25 shows [Qd Jd]

lolbin7 shows [8c 8d]

FoursBEgood (Observer): that pisses me off

*** FLOP *** [6c 6d Kd]

FoursBEgood (Observer): i was dominating

*** TURN *** [6c 6d Kd] [6h]

*** RIVER *** [6c 6d Kd 6h] [3s]

MADMITCH25 shows three of a kind, Sixes

lolbin7 shows a full house, Sixes full of Eights

lolbin7 wins the pot (1,120) with a full house, Sixes full of Eights

Seat 3: lolbin7 (small blind) showed [8c 8d] and won (1,120) with a full house, Sixes full of Eights

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 1,120 | Rake 0

Board: [6c 6d Kd 6h 3s]

Seat 2: MADMITCH25 (big blind) showed [Qd Jd] and lost with three of a kind, Sixes

—–

And i been winning flips, and flopping good.

Full Tilt Poker Game #12666751133: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94306891), Table 1 – 60/120 – No Limit Hold’em – 1:55:07 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 1: lolbin7 (930)

Seat 5: mattyhomez21 (1,770)

lolbin7 posts the small blind of 60

mattyhomez21 posts the big blind of 120

The button is in seat #1

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [3d 3s]

lolbin7 raises to 240

mattyhomez21 raises to 1,770, and is all in

lolbin7 calls 690, and is all in

mattyhomez21 shows [8s Ac]

lolbin7 shows [3d 3s]

Uncalled bet of 840 returned to mattyhomez21

*** FLOP *** [6s 2h 4s]

*** TURN *** [6s 2h 4s] [Qh]

*** RIVER *** [6s 2h 4s Qh] [9s]

mattyhomez21 shows Ace Queen high

lolbin7 shows a pair of Threes

lolbin7 wins the pot (1,860) with a pair of Threes

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 1,860 | Rake 0

Board: [6s 2h 4s Qh 9s]

Seat 1: lolbin7 (small blind) showed [3d 3s] and won (1,860) with a pair of Threes

Seat 5: mattyhomez21 (big blind) showed [8s Ac] and lost with Ace Queen high

Full Tilt Poker Game #12666753884: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94306891), Table 1 – 80/160 – No Limit Hold’em – 1:55:25 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 1: lolbin7 (1,860)

Seat 5: mattyhomez21 (840)

mattyhomez21 posts the small blind of 80

lolbin7 posts the big blind of 160

The button is in seat #5

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [Kd 9c]

mattyhomez21 folds

Uncalled bet of 80 returned to lolbin7

lolbin7 mucks

lolbin7 wins the pot (160)

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 160 | Rake 0

Seat 1: lolbin7 (big blind) collected (160), mucked

Seat 5: mattyhomez21 (small blind) folded before the Flop

Full Tilt Poker Game #12666754757: $3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo) (94306891), Table 1 – 80/160 – No Limit Hold’em – 1:55:31 ET – 2009/06/07

Seat 1: lolbin7 (1,940)

Seat 5: mattyhomez21 (760)

lolbin7 posts the small blind of 80

mattyhomez21 posts the big blind of 160

The button is in seat #1

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to lolbin7 [3s Th]

lolbin7 calls 80

mattyhomez21 checks

*** FLOP *** [7c Td Tc]

mattyhomez21 bets 600, and is all in

lolbin7 calls 600

mattyhomez21 shows [5c 7d]

lolbin7 shows [3s Th]

*** TURN *** [7c Td Tc] [Kh]

*** RIVER *** [7c Td Tc Kh] [Ah]

mattyhomez21 shows two pair, Tens and Sevens

lolbin7 shows three of a kind, Tens

lolbin7 wins the pot (1,520) with three of a kind, Tens

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot 1,520 | Rake 0

Board: [7c Td Tc Kh Ah]

Seat 1: lolbin7 (small blind) showed [3s Th] and won (1,520) with three of a kind, Tens

Seat 5: mattyhomez21 (big blind) showed [5c 7d] and lost with two pair, Tens and Sevens

Straight vs Set

I know i shouldn’t whine about bad beats… but this makes me feel like shyt. and someone had to say “nh” after which is like wtf. suckout = nh? hate these idiots who say “nh” when what they should say is “nice catch”

PokerStars Game #29059381228:  Hold’em No Limit ($0.05/$0.10) – 2009/06/06 12:39:57 ET

Table ‘Musca III’ 9-max Seat #3 is the button

Seat 1: LampiJOHN ($2.35 in chips)

Seat 2: phone-man325 ($7.75 in chips)

Seat 3: roma_keller ($23.70 in chips)

Seat 4: dgosensi ($2.35 in chips)

Seat 5: Bokeltsen ($2 in chips)

Seat 6: Jogi3636 ($4.55 in chips)

Seat 7: Bossa74 ($12.70 in chips)

Seat 8: ForMyTiaras ($9.90 in chips)

Seat 9: dempat15 ($12.40 in chips)

dgosensi: posts small blind $0.05

Bokeltsen: posts big blind $0.10

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to ForMyTiaras [Th Jh]

Jogi3636: calls $0.10

Bossa74: folds

ForMyTiaras: calls $0.10

dempat15: folds

LampiJOHN: folds

phone-man325: raises $0.10 to $0.20

roma_keller: folds

dgosensi: folds

Bokeltsen: calls $0.10

Jogi3636: calls $0.10

ForMyTiaras: calls $0.10

*** FLOP *** [7d 9d 8c]

Bokeltsen: bets $0.30

Jogi3636: calls $0.30

ForMyTiaras: raises $0.60 to $0.90

phone-man325: folds

Bokeltsen: calls $0.60

Jogi3636: raises $2 to $2.90

ForMyTiaras: calls $2

Bokeltsen: folds

*** TURN *** [7d 9d 8c] [5d]

Jogi3636: bets $1.45 and is all-in

ForMyTiaras: calls $1.45

*** RIVER *** [7d 9d 8c 5d] [9s]

*** SHOW DOWN ***

Jogi3636: shows [8d 8s] (a full house, Eights full of Nines)

ForMyTiaras: mucks hand

Jogi3636 collected $9.95 from pot

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot $10.45 | Rake $0.50

Board [7d 9d 8c 5d 9s]

Seat 1: LampiJOHN folded before Flop (didn’t bet)

Seat 2: phone-man325 folded on the Flop

Seat 3: roma_keller (button) folded before Flop (didn’t bet)

Seat 4: dgosensi (small blind) folded before Flop

Seat 5: Bokeltsen (big blind) folded on the Flop

Seat 6: Jogi3636 showed [8d 8s] and won ($9.95) with a full house, Eights full of Nines

Seat 7: Bossa74 folded before Flop (didn’t bet)

Seat 8: ForMyTiaras mucked [Th Jh]

Seat 9: dempat15 folded before Flop (didn’t bet)

PokerStars Game #29059381228:  Hold’em No Limit ($0.05/$0.10) – 2009/06/06 12:39:57 ET

Table ‘Musca III’ 9-max Seat #3 is the button

Seat 1: LampiJOHN ($2.35 in chips)

Seat 2: phone-man325 ($7.75 in chips)

Seat 3: roma_keller ($23.70 in chips)

Seat 4: dgosensi ($2.35 in chips)

Seat 5: Bokeltsen ($2 in chips)

Seat 6: Jogi3636 ($4.55 in chips)

Seat 7: Bossa74 ($12.70 in chips)

Seat 8: ForMyTiaras ($9.90 in chips)

Seat 9: dempat15 ($12.40 in chips)

dgosensi: posts small blind $0.05

Bokeltsen: posts big blind $0.10

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to ForMyTiaras [Th Jh]

Jogi3636: calls $0.10

Bossa74: folds

ForMyTiaras: calls $0.10

dempat15: folds

LampiJOHN: folds

phone-man325: raises $0.10 to $0.20

roma_keller: folds

dgosensi: folds

Bokeltsen: calls $0.10

Jogi3636: calls $0.10

ForMyTiaras: calls $0.10

*** FLOP *** [7d 9d 8c]

Bokeltsen: bets $0.30

Jogi3636: calls $0.30

ForMyTiaras: raises $0.60 to $0.90

phone-man325: folds

Bokeltsen: calls $0.60

Jogi3636: raises $2 to $2.90

ForMyTiaras: calls $2

Bokeltsen: folds

*** TURN *** [7d 9d 8c] [5d]

Jogi3636: bets $1.45 and is all-in

ForMyTiaras: calls $1.45

*** RIVER *** [7d 9d 8c 5d] [9s]

*** SHOW DOWN ***

Jogi3636: shows [8d 8s] (a full house, Eights full of Nines)

ForMyTiaras: mucks hand

Jogi3636 collected $9.95 from pot

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot $10.45 | Rake $0.50

Board [7d 9d 8c 5d 9s]

Seat 1: LampiJOHN folded before Flop (didn’t bet)

Seat 2: phone-man325 folded on the Flop

Seat 3: roma_keller (button) folded before Flop (didn’t bet)

Seat 4: dgosensi (small blind) folded before Flop

Seat 5: Bokeltsen (big blind) folded on the Flop

Seat 6: Jogi3636 showed [8d 8s] and won ($9.95) with a full house, Eights full of Nines

Seat 7: Bossa74 folded before Flop (didn’t bet)

Seat 8: ForMyTiaras mucked [Th Jh]

Seat 9: dempat15 folded before Flop (didn’t bet)

Super Turbo Update

After yesterday’s rant, i actually ran bad again. And was going through another 8 games, 1 cash session. But my last 3 games has been good, i feel like i am for once really improving in this really high variance game. This is what i improved on.

My earlier strategy is basically

• shove 77+ AQ+ from any position.
• shove Ax in the sb/button/cutoff.
• shove any hand in the sb when im down to 4 big blinds

I find that shoving 77 has been getting me into trouble so now i no longer do that.

I realise that there are similarities with normal SNG strategy in that we should be tight when against 8 other players. But we can open up more when we are down to 5/6. I guess we are against less cards therefore less variance when we get a reasonable hand.

I no longer shove 77, and i’m thinking of not shoving 88 99 AQo too, and just stick with TT+ AKo+

I don’t know.. it really depends. And if guy is loose, i might call with as low as AJ or 66.

But otherwise i think of tightening up my early game a bit, and it’s doing me considerable good so far.

Swing Swing

Nowadays i just find myself humming  to Kiss Me by Sixpence None the Richer. “Swing… Swing…” One of my favourite songs. Not only because i like the song, but more because Swing Swing really describes my current poker results. Up $15 in cash games thanks to fishes, down $41 in Super Turbos, morning got back $33. Then proceed to lose $20 back. Crazy swings. Just check out these sessions

1st session

1 1 games.

Buyin $41.80.

Profits: $50.40.

Winnings: $8.60

ROI = 21%

93959164	Jun 04 09:12ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
93958710	Jun 04 09:05ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	8	–
93957740	Jun 04 08:49ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	4	–
93956263	Jun 04 08:25ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	1	$15.75
93953341	Jun 04 07:31ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
93952168	Jun 04 07:11ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–
93950729	Jun 04 06:46ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
93949860	Jun 04 06:32ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	4	–
93948972	Jun 04 06:10ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	3	$6.30
93948112	Jun 04 05:54ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	4	–
93947392	Jun 04 05:39ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–

Then i start donking off my money in high variance 45man…

Buyin $19.00.

Prize 0!!

93965528	Jun 04 10:49ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	45	23	–
93964551	Jun 04 10:34ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	45	17	–
93963433	Jun 04 10:20ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	45	21	–
93961587	Jun 04 09:57ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	45	14	–
93961301	Jun 04 09:48ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	45	35	–

Proceeded to play a 2nd session of 9 man

Played really bad, shoving 66 early game. Lose coinflips. My first ever Misclick… I was looking at hand history and came back clicked all in instead of fold lol.

13 games

Buyin: $49.40

Profit: -$39.00

ROI: -81% !!

OMG i felt like nothing i can do was going to make me win. I was also not focused, tilted, and tried to 2table for the first time and lost all of em.

93981947	Jun 04 13:53ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	7	–
93979916	Jun 04 13:33ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	8	–
93978771	Jun 04 13:21ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	4	–
93976602	Jun 04 12:58ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
93975358	Jun 04 12:43ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–
93974729	Jun 04 12:37ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	7	–
93974202	Jun 04 12:30ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–
93974147	Jun 04 12:30ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	7	–
93973819	Jun 04 12:28ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	8	–
93973099	Jun 04 12:19ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	6	–
93972380	Jun 04 12:09ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	6	–
93970913	Jun 04 11:52ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	3	$6.30
93967930	Jun 04 11:16ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45

Went to sleep… and the miracle healing powers of “the next day” brings

The first 6 games… and i didn’t even run good, couple of the 3rd should be first.

94046321	Jun 04 23:29ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
94043577	Jun 04 23:03ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
94041991	Jun 04 22:48ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
94039654	Jun 04 22:27ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	3	$6.30
94037071	Jun 04 22:04ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	3	$6.30
94034956	Jun 04 21:44ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	3	$6.30

Then not bad… had my only first position in a long while

94063805	Jun 05 03:05ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	9	–
94059698	Jun 05 02:02ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	1	$15.75
94058390	Jun 05 01:45ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–
94058097	Jun 05 01:41ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	9	–
94056523	Jun 05 01:19ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
94054769	Jun 05 00:58ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
94054613	Jun 05 00:56ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	9	–
94051131	Jun 05 00:18ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	4	–

Then again…

94071139	Jun 05 05:32ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–
94070772	Jun 05 05:22ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–
94068865	Jun 05 04:42ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–
94068775	Jun 05 04:39ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	8	–
94068656	Jun 05 04:36ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	8	–
94068016	Jun 05 04:24ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
94067590	Jun 05 04:14ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	5	–
94066859	Jun 05 04:03ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	4	–
94066717	Jun 05 03:59ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	7	–

And after miracle healing powers of “afternoon nap”

94080926	Jun 05 08:37ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	3	$6.30
94079757	Jun 05 08:16ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	2	$9.45
94079023	Jun 05 08:04ET	$3.50+$0.30 Sit&Go (Sup Turbo)		$3.50 + $0.30	9	4	–

So this only goes to show one thing.

I only do well in the beginning of a session! After i wake up and i’m really fresh i tend to play well i guess.

Also you can call me superstitious, but i believe not hating on yourself and believing you will lose and get bad beated is the key. When i’m fresh i feel good i want to win. But when i play for long and get tilted, i have no drive anymore and just lose focus. Doing other things like web browsing, stat-ing my opponents, and listening to music. But when i have nothing but the game going, i play well and cash a lot. I am going to set this rule for myself no web browser/music/more than 1 table.

Found some super turbo articles which say we should only be pushing TT+ AQ+ early game. I actually push 88+ AQ+. Late position i push AT AJ. But i really hate KQs, super pretty card that actually is behind any ace. And in a blog, someone was saying how super turbos are very swingy, i totally agree. I am still up playing this, but the good runs are just deceiving to be honest! and i hope the bad runs are equally deceiving too. But all in all i think i have become a better player despite recent breakeven results. It’s only important that we improve in anything we set out to do. But recently i’ve realised it’s more important to be totally one-minded on a task, not even if you think you can handle it while browsing chatting etc. Focus has it’s own miraculous powers, and wins not necessarily goes to the best player, but someone who wants it most and is most focused & dedicated to it. Going to play soccer now, cyas!