Basketball and Exercise

Wierdest thing ever. I just went to father’s friend’s house. Really nice house with cinema gym etc and there was also a basketball ring. I always wanted a basketball ring. Especially those that can be adjusted lower so i can dunk on it. Yes, wanna be like Spud Webb. There are so many things i want to improve on. Mainly basketball, dunking, bowling, pool (billiard). And the other sports i am very eager to learn are golf and cycling.

So back to the main reason. I was at the house just walking around and just sitting down at a corner, didn’t really talk to anyone. I am the interacting during activity kind of person. I would much prefer be doing something and talking at the same time instead of just talking for the sake of talking. I find very pointless sometimes and not engaging. Anyway later i saw my brother playing basketball at the ring, and i automatically joined in. It was great, my mind was totally focused on it and i was so excited. It’s been ages since i played basketball. Still can’t throw a ball straight using the normal stance as in left hand supporting, and right hand shooting. I think it’s more practical to shoot with the two hands throwing motion but i gotta learn the NBA way lol. I think the trick is to spread ur fingers out wide across the ball so it doesn’t slip away from your palm when you push it. Anyway i had a great time playing basketball, and felt engaged and good in general.

I feel good after exercising. Again i got my own reason why exercising is good. From my own observation anything that works the organs will calm the mind, i don’t know why. There are two ways, one is eating and the other exercising. When you eat, you organs are working to digest the food etc. and this expending of energy calms you down. And when you are using energy, you calm down and you can think better. Eating is the body expending energy by itself through digestion, but exercising we have to work more than just chewing and swallowing, we really got to put in effort to work our muscles. Regardless both uses up our energy, and some how calms down the mind.

I really need peace of mind more than anything. After i exercise i really feel good, like i have energy and yet calm. It’s important to have calm energy. Coz most of the time i have energy but it’s the kind of nervous energy which i think is caused by not eating on time and not exercising enough. It is so hard to think when i have this nervous energy in me. I think my friend is right when he says that we never use our energy to exercise that is why we feel pent up. I didn’t quite understand what he meant by using our energy. I thought when we get tired it’s because we “have no energy”. But now i agree with him we have to use up our body energy through exercise.

$1 SNG 2-tabling NL1

SNGs haven’t been good for me.

 

86918513	Apr 08 17:04ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go		$1.00 + $0.25	9	2	$2.70
86918499	Apr 08 17:04ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	5	–
86914941	Apr 08 16:31ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go		$1.00 + $0.25	9	6	–
86914930	Apr 08 16:31ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	4	–
86910703	Apr 08 15:53ET	$2 + $0.25 Sit & Go		$2.00 + $0.25	9	6	–
86910736	Apr 08 15:52ET	$2 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$2.00 + $0.25	9	6	–
86905626	Apr 08 15:06ET	$2 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$2.00 + $0.25	9	3	$3.60
86905609	Apr 08 15:04ET	$2 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$2.00 + $0.25	9	5	–
86686372	Apr 06 19:42ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	6	–
86686344	Apr 06 19:42ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	3	$1.80
86680911	Apr 06 18:58ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	4	–
86667703	Apr 06 17:07ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	1	$4.50
86663191	Apr 06 16:29ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	4	–
86661106	Apr 06 16:11ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	8	–
86657452	Apr 06 15:44ET	$1 + $0.25 Sit & Go (Turbo)		$1.00 + $0.25	9	4	–
86392667	Apr 04 13:05ET	Super Sat to the Double Deuce		$0.75 + $0.15	9	6	–

 

Total Buy-in: $23.65

Total Profit: $12.60

Net Profit: -$11.05

 

Satellites

I have no idea why i played on the $0.75 Satellite. I thought it was a $0.75 cent SNG. I don’t really like Satellites and FTP tourneys because i don’t understand them yet. I just want a straight forward tournament. A tourney to enter another tourney, and there are so many different tourneys. One thing also is that these tourneys take hours to complete and i don’t think i want to spend so much time on something i can hardly win. I haven’t played much of these big scale tourneys, probably about 5 of these in the micro stakes. Always finish like 40-50%.

SNG

Back to my SNGs i can’t help but say i been sucked out on. I don’t remember ever going into a hand and literally sucking out someone. Unless it’s minor like 57-43. But i lietrally have been sucked out on 80-20 70-30. U know, one live card and he pairs. But without a software like letting me know my “unluckyness” i can’t get it out of my heads why i’m going so badly. Pisses me off the $2.25 SNG i played and was in a good position, like top 3 with 6 left, and i just lost both tables against freakish hands. Why, i could’ve at least gotten $1.35 if i come 3rd on one table, but no, $0. I guess i am bad beat whining again, so easy to say sometimes to “move on” from bad beats but when it happens, it’s just tough on the mind. I guess i gotta keep on playing?

FT SNG vs PS SNG

All these SNGs are played on FT. I think FT is way tougher than Pokerstars. I started on pokerstars and remember i was breakeven or slightly losing. But now that i play on FT, i just can’t win in the cash games, except recently, will elaborate on that later. So i played the SNG on FT and they are easy at first, because i was running really good too. If you read like this post on january 25th, i played 5 SNGs, and finished 1 2 2 3 5. That’s really awesome looking back because now i’m 4 8 4 1 4 3 6 4 6 5 2 (in order) which becomes 1 2 3 4 4 4 4 5 6 6 8. That 4 4 4 4 really hurt me. But is my bubble play really that bad? I definitely know that my mid game is really bad. When it is 6 or 7 handed i don’t know what to do, which hands to play. I often become looser, and try to c-bet or bluff and get into trouble from there. I guess i should stick to what i know – playing tight. I have become way too experimental recently, coupled with bad luck, and that translates into a number of non-cashes. But back to the main point, i think FT SNG are tougher than PS SNGs. The players on FT are better imo, both in cash games and SNG. I mean the top level CGs are played on FT, i doubt there are that many high stakes games in PS. PS is just a lot of games and MTT i guess. Anyway i just think i have a harder time playing on FT. When i play on PS there are quite a number of donkey players, but on FT it is quite rare. I don’t know, i could very well play on a weaker site like CD Poker(?) which i have a $50 free deposit too. Have to keep on playing these games i can’t really beat so i can improve.

2-tabling NL1

The only reason why i am playing cash games at all is because of this promotion called Take 2. It says if you 2 table any ring games for 5 days straight you get a bonus, 10 days straight you get $25 bonus. But since i only have exactly 5 days left in this period i need to play every single day. The first session i played with my friend, Will. I guess we were about breakeven. I was up 70% on one, and down a little on the other. Then all of a sudden i lost with AA on a x x 10 J A board. He held QK, i shud’ve known and shud’ve betted more, but the way it went and hitting top set really blinded me to straight possibility, i need to be more straight aware seriously. I am a bit numbers blind sometimes. Anyway i doubled up on one, and broke on the other one. That’s how it went. The 2nd day, yesterday, i was running like crazy on one, while going broke twice on the other one, what the hell. But i know it’s not my fault. I slowplayed TT on a 4 x T 4 Q board. And shoved river, he showed Queens. Well i could’ve known, but no way i was gona bet to prevent a 2 outer on the river. Then bought in again, raise reraise shove call. My KK vs his QQ. XXXXQ. Gone again another buy-in. So 5x buy-in is nonsense. You can’t survive with that kind of management. 10x is even questionable. But 20x is good i think, safe enough to play without fear of variance. So yesterday i finished with $4.75 on left table. Right table -$3.60 i think. Because i ended up with $1.10 in profit. So thats 1 buy-in profit for 2 hours.

Singapore

Going back to singapore again (unexpectedly) for about 2 weeks. Which is GREAT! I miss playing the home games at friends’ and i get to meet W, my poker partner. I don’t know how much i should play, but i gotta spend my time properly, and download as much as possible. My net is still running there so i gotta make full use of it, planning downloads etc. I also gona play online all-day, and home games as much as possible. I might even go on the cruise again. We’ll see. I’ll try to make full use of this trip to play poker. But i am afraid i would spend too much while i’m there and get my BR crushed. Especially if i go on the cruise and bust $1k like one of my friend did. It’s unbelievable but really likely. If i run so bad online, like 2 buyin gone through no fault, why can’t it happen in real life. Plus i am not rolled enough for it. I took a shot with $600. And came home lucky with $259. But to be honest i need like 10x the buyin if i gona play without nervousness. Which is $3000 at least. I just don’t got that money for Poker. Which means i should be playing only $100  $200 buyin games.

Overall on Poker and Career

Still pretty confused. I want to go all out but yet i question my ability and whether it is the right thing to do. I am afraid i would become a really selfish person in such an individualistic occupation. I play myself, to earn for myself, it’s all self self self. And maybe that’s why i’m attracted to poker… cause i’m attracted to self-gain aka selfish. I want to be more selfless. Like maybe teaching and providing some good product or service for others. It feels good without including ’self’ in it. I been thinking, if i am going to play poker, i am going to keep it as non-self as possible. I want to have poker groups and buddies, like we are a team kinda like in soccer etc. At least you are playing for the team, not just for yourself. Basically be more community minded. Making friends and improving together instead of being stuck in my own situation. If i ever not make it in poker, which i shouldn’t be thinking about if i plan on going all out, but if i think it’s not rationally practical to move on, i will move on to computer programming. I been pretty interested in it for sometime. Gosh i knew i wanted to do computer/media back in college but never made the hard move, not it’s just all back to it. Definitely be more rational and make better decisions when you can. I think me, our family and extended family we are pretty computer minded guys, maybe it runs in the genes. Even playing poker i feel it’s like doing math problems for money, it’s all probability and guessing. I guess people who like math also likes computer programming and likes psychology and likes games and poker and are usually socially awkward! I believe there are different types of people in the world like there are different races and nationalities. Each of us are put here to do something, and together we complement the whole. Whew! I like that statement. I am getting really random right now (maybe due to super bad sleeping habits these last 2 days. Sleep at 11am, wake up at 6pm. Totally oppossite of normal human being).